wondering

I got to thinking about friendships and relationships. I have a few that I wouldn't trade for the world, and a few I should just let go of.

Then I thought about a relationship of mine. I care very much about this person as if I knew her for years. But its pretty different and one sided really. I mean she knows everything about me and I know very few details about her.

Sure I know she likes snow globes, skiing, food, she is married and has a dog I think. But I think the general outside person could learn that.

How do you care so much about someone who you hardly know? I don't mean like a romantic care just friendly care. I got to thinking about this because I had a dream in which she was killed in a plane crash, I woke up crying and couldn't sleep. It was horrifying.

So when I was relaxing this afternoon it all came to me. I love her like a sister or best friend, I care very much about her as I do any of my friends.

But I know very little about her life and her as a person. I know she is very genuine, caring, loving, compassionate person but that's it.

I'm guessing this comes from the fact she loves and cares about me with no expectations at all, other than to be true to myself.

Almost 10 months ago when I met her I didn't expect to care, I figured she would be like any other person in life and I would hurry up and get my problems out there and be done with it all. If I even got that far, to be honest I never thought I'd continue going back after a few months. I honestly was pretty nervous I wouldn't like her at all. I guess from the moment she cried over the loss of my son with me, it was then I knew she was special.

I'm a blessed person I guess I just need to think of it that way.